Someday

Someday, BELIEVE that there would be someone out there who would like you and your ENTIRETY. You would not need to guess, assume, and wonder if he's the ONE; because he would like you so much that he would be willing to take the RISK to let you know just that. God may have led you to believe that certain people who came into your life were the one, but the truth is He was only letting you feel and realize that just because you like someone and that someone likes you back doesn't mean that he would be the one that God has planned for you to be with. 

Have you been hurt? Have you felt pain? That's only because God is telling you that the one he has prepared for you will NEVER EVER BREAK YOUR HEART. That person would understand how precious your heart is, and that he would be very lucky once you open it for him. He would appreciate your uniqueness, your individuality, and the fact that you are a bit crazy. He would appreciate the fact that you may not be the most beautiful girl in the world, but for him you are more than enough. He would be proud to have you in his life because he knows that you are one-of-a-kind. You would never be jealous, because he would never give you any reason to. You would never feel insecure, because he would assure you everyday just how amazing you are. He would love each and every person in your life, because he knows how much it would mean to you. Your love would NEVER be PERFECT, you would have shortcomings, and conflicts; but at the end of the day, you would both fight to make it work because you know that your LOVE is ONE-IN-A-MILLION.  So be patient, and just believe that your story would be so EPIC that it would be WORTH SHARING WITH THE WORLD AND would be WORTH WAITING FOR.

-- I know that this kind of Love may be too Idealistic and Unreal; it may not even exist. But I do believe that someday it would happen for me. God is making me wait because he wants to be sure that I am whole and complete before I open my heart to someone. He knows that I cannot handle heartaches so He is also preparing my someone to be the best that he can possibly be so that he would never ever break my heart.  He is making me realize that I don't need someone to complete me because the one He would give me is a better whole which would complement another better whole. 

3.1.2015. 

Keep Going

There are things that I don't have and maybe would NEVER EVER HAVE in this lifetime. But if you would ask me now how I look at my life, I'd say: I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY. 

This really sums up how I feel right now. Maybe it's also a part of growing up: Accepting the things that we can't change. After the many things that have happened in my life, I can definitely say that these experiences really did make me stronger. Gone are the days when I would dwell on things which have already happened; because now, I've learned to just move on, continue living, just pray, and to always keep the faith. Food for thought! Hahaha! Goodnight!

Xoxo, 

Butchik

So it's June

Been in hiatus for a while because I can't really think of what should I be posting. Anyway,it's already JUNE!! I can't believe that it is already half of the year!!! Here in Manila, June means that  it's the start of another school year!! I know for most of my batch mates (both in High School and College), this is just another typical day at work. Well not for me; because I as well will be going to school this semester. I may sound as if I love schooling so much, but I really do! hahaha! Nothing beats that feeling of buying new school stuff, meeting new people, that sort of things.  However, I know that it's all going to be different this time, because I will not be just going to school; I'll be going into LAW SCHOOL!! whew!! The truth is, it really hasn't sinked in yet, but I know that once school starts, it will all come right back at me!

Entering law school has not really been my plan; for the longest time, my dream had always been to become a DOCTOR. But things really do happen in college; it is really where you will find where you are supposed to be heading. So anyway, it will not be for another week before I officially start schooling again, but I'm really looking forward to it! I don't know what to expect, I don't know how to feel, but I am excited about it. This will be a new  chapter in my life, and I can't wait to see what's going to happen!! Until next time!!! =)

Venting Out

For the past few weeks, I've been keeping this thing inside me. I really want it to be something that I should celebrate first with myself and my family. I never want others to know about it; and I guess they wouldn't be that too interested to know. All I can say is that this thing is what I really want; it may not be what I have wanted in the past, but I'm sure that this time it is what I WANT. I knew it because the night when I knew about it, I was genuinely happy, and I felt that it was really meant to be.

You may be wondering why the title of this post is "Venting Out"

Actually, the main reason why I am writing this right now is because I've been thinking a lot lately. There are many things that are bothering me right now. I don't know how I should say it, but let me keep it this way:

"I am tired of people making me realize that my dream is not for me"

I've said this because I know that there are many people there who are not genuinely happy for this BIG LEAP that i took. But like what I have said, I am tired of it. I am an observant type of person and I know what I see; my understanding of things go beyond what is visible to the eye. So, people may act positively, but I can tell that they are not.

But I've also realized that I should stop worrying now. God gave me this opportunity because he knows that I asked for it for a certain reason. It is a reason between me and HIM; and I am really thankful that he has given me it. He also gave me this chance because he knows that I can do it. So starting now, I will start living my dream!!! I will not be bothered by what others think because it is what's supposed to happen. Like what I always tell my friends:

"Life is too short to be worrying about what others think" 

So I guess it's time that I start remembering it; and live by it!

Thank you Lord for everything!!! 

MAKE IT RIGHT!

I have just graduated last April 1st 2011; it was a very happy moment, (and I will post about it here SOON) and just like how I have described that day: everything was so SURREAL! I don't know if it's because it felt as if everything went by so fast; or if it's because I feel like there is still no closure with my studies. It's weird right? That despite working hard for the past four years in order to gain a degree, I still feel as if it is still not enough. I have always said that I wanted to be a physician ever since I was a little girl; but things really happen in college. I guess it's really true that it is in college where you will know where you will truly belong.


 Like what I have mentioned in my post before: (click to read my post) 

"Sometimes what we thought were meant for us are actually just things that would guide us in going to the place where we really belong to". '

As of the moment, I can confidently say that my future is a tad more clear. I am now confident that I will really be heading somewhere. I know that there will be more uncertainties that would come my way, there may even be times when I would feel like giving up; but I should also ALWAYS ALWAYS keep in mind that this time, it would be different. This is really my future now; and I should do all that I can in order to really MAKE IT RIGHT!


Thank you Lord for all the blessings!!!! You always surprise me!!!!

A FRESH START. A NEW CHANCE.

Just as the clock stroke 12 this morning, a certain change happened in my life as well. For so many months now, I've been very anxious and confused as to where I will be heading next; but now, the future seemed to be more clear for me. I can't really say what it is as of now; but all I can say is that I am SO SO THANKFUL right now! Thank you Lord for giving clarity to my life! This is definitely a sign that I should start a new and better life. I asked you for this chance, and you really gave it to me LOUD and CLEAR! I will not let you down! I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD!

I LOVE THIS DAY!! This is the BEST WAY TO END MY MONTH!

-Chick =)

FUTURE!

When I was a little girl, I have always thought about the future. It is what I have always talked about and it is something that I just cannot wait to happen. I remember riding in our car one time thinking of what I wanted to become,and then I told myself that I cannot wait for the day when that dream comes true and I will look back to that day; the day when my dreams were just dreams. Fast forward to today, I have realized that it has been 10 years since I had that dream. Of course, I cannot really tell if it has already happened; but i do know that I am now living that dream.

Who knows where I will end up to, and who knows what will happen?

Before, I've always felt that I should be planning my future twenty steps ahead; it is what my mom and dad told me. However, seeing things now, I am not sure if that would really work for me. Because for them, it really did work; they have achieved their goal at their desired time. But I am not them; i want to be like them, i just don't think that I have what it takes.

You see, ever since I was little, I have only one goal in my mind; it is the only thing that I was really aiming at. But then college happened. And now, I really do believe that it is really in college when you will find where you belong. During my sophomore year, I had this two specific classes which have really opened my eyes to the other possibilities. I have never considered them as options before; but now, I really do. I must admit that I really felt scared upon realizing what I wanted to happen. Imagine dreaming of something all your life, and then all of a sudden, you will take a big turn and change that dream. I felt like a kindergarten student again; not knowing what to expect, what to do, and how to do things again.

But that's life; sometimes what we thought were meant for us are actually just things that would guide us in going to the place where we really belong to. Sure, there are still uncertainties that would come our way; but when you have finally found where you really want to go, I guess there would be nothing that could hinder us from being driven and in achieving that one TRUE GOAL that we have. As of today there are still about six months before college would commence; and a lot could happen in those six months. But as of now too, I am sure of what my options are; and i am more driven as ever!

See you Future! I hope it wouldn't be too long!

Xoxo,
Chick

Why I don't want to fall in love

Okay, don't be too surprised. The title is actually "Why I don't want to fall in love...Just Yet"

The title is just for suspense value =)

So here's my story...

First let me introduce myself:

"Hi! My name is Butchik Santos!

I am already 19 years old, I am in the last year of my teenage life, I have never had a boyfriend since birth, and I have never fallen in love."

This may be hard to admit for some people; but I, on the other hand, am proud of it!

You see, for the past nineteen (19) years of my life, I have seen a lot of "INSTANCES OF LOVE".

Instance #1: People who were once so madly in love who later on become bitter exes in the end.

Instance #2: People who have been together for a long time but ended up being with other people in the end.

Instance #3: People getting so vulnerable because of love

Instance #4: People getting so STUPID because of love

Instance #5: People forgetting their friends because of love.

Instance #6: People crying for days because of love.

Instance #7: People getting fat because of love (true story)

Instance #8: People becoming UNREASONABLE because of love

Instance #9: People disregarding their family because of love

Instance #10: People committing suicide because of love (I know right?haha!but true story indeed!)

These are some of the things that I have discovered about being in LOVE.

I may seem negative for writing all of these things, but these things really do happen; they did happen!

And how did I know?

Because these people came to me, asking for advice. Can you imagine?These people asked for an advice from someone who hasn't even been in love in the first place!I guess instance #4 is correct.Haha!Kidding!

So anyway, being someone who has not experienced all the drama, I am not really sure if these people are giving me warnings or if they were terrorizing me or something. Hearing all these things really scares me!

I have always been this person who is good in giving advices. I can make a person feel better by giving words of encouragement. But somehow, I cannot help but think that someday, these things can also happen to me; and that I will also be needing advices. This is my biggest fear!

Okay, maybe at this point you may think that I am crazy or something; or that I am an anti-LOVE person. Actually, I really am not; I am scared, that's true, but I also do believe that being in LOVE is the greatest thing in this world. Nothing can compare to that feeling of giving away a part of yourself to someone you really value the most. I also still think that this is something that I just cannot wait to experience in the near future.

But here's the deal:

I am not against LOVE (like what I have said), but I am against LOVE IN THE WRONG TIME.

One thing that I have noticed from all those people whom I have helped (naks!haha!), is that they always get hurt in the end because the love that they had was not mature enough; or that they fell in love too easily. Sure, it feels nice to be impulsive once in a while; but when it comes to love, i think IMPULSIVENESS DOES NOT REALLY WORK. They say that when love hits you, you would just know it. So the tendency is for people to act on in immediately, feel really good, and then eventually end up being hurt. And this brings me to formulate this saying in my mind:

"Nothing can explain how love happens; but there are lot of explanations about how it fades."

Sounds unfair right? How love is unexplainable, but falling out of love has many reasons. Maybe that's just it; being in love is complicated. Even the best-selling authors cannot give a precise and exact definition about what love is. And I guess it is also because not all people experience the same kind of love. Maybe what I consider as love may not be considered as love by other people, and it works both ways.

See how complicated it is?

So I guess those people who were able to find their true love on their first try really are the lucky ones. They don't have to suffer the agony of the process of breaking up, or the feeling of being a failure, and the feeling of being worthless in the end. I may sound ambitious, but this is the kind of love which I am dreaming to have. Maybe what I said before about being scared can be best explained by this: I do not know yet how I will love someone or in what level will I fall. This scares me because I do not know if I will also end up hurting like the others; or if I will also get stupid, or unreasonable, or FAT! haha!

These are the questions in my mind; these may also be the reasons that's been holding me back.

But I guess I am really just being careful; I do not want to rush into things because I know that if I am ready, it will happen. And I GUESS by that time, I will also be ready to be hurt, be stupid, and be unreasonable; but I am SURE that when that happens, I will be stronger. Preparing my heart for the battle is what I am doing right now. And those instances of love? Well, they are just my guide. Because when the time comes, I know I will also be able to write my own "LOVE INSTANCES"; and they will be the best!

Xoxo,

Chick

This article speaks out for everybody..and I LOVE IT!!!

My daughter’s letter to the man she will love someday

By Cathy Babao-Guballa
Philippine Daily Inquirer

RELATIONSHIPS ARE always a difficult terrain to navigate.

As a woman, you spend hours pondering—alone or with your girl friends—the intricacies of the human heart. You always hope and pray that the next generation will get it better than you did.

Below is a letter I found in my daughter’s website (I have her permission to share this). She wrote it to “the man I will someday love.”

I was expecting to read a gushing, romantic, idealistic tome. I was humbled instead by her sentiments. It’s filled with sensible expectations.

I pray that this will make every girl believe that hope does spring eternal, and even if your heart has been broken a few times, you can always put the pieces back together, and make it right the next time around.

Take your time. Don’t rush and don’t just “settle.” If it’s part of His plan, God’s best awaits you out there.Letter

Dear You,

I will admit that sometimes I really do wonder if you exist.

There is a part of every little girl’s heart that envisions her prince charming. At age three, it is usually of a man who can save her from the wrath of an evil stepmother, wake her from eternal slumber or give her that true love’s kiss.

In elementary school, he becomes the boy with the least cooties, the one who’s willing to cross the playground to share his Oreos even if it makes him a target for the week of all the other boys.

Come high school, it’s that boy you stand with at prom, who your father stared down at the door, who provided you with an experience complete with photos you will cringe at a decade later, a corsage that yellows in the refrigerator, and a faded memory of a night that seemed almost too magical to be real.

Nineteen years into this life, however, and still unwilling to give my heart away, I am still that same little girl who hopes for her prince charming. And although I wonder why it has taken you this long to sweep me off my feet and whisk me off to your palace on horseback, I know that it is probably because meeting you will be better than any fairytale I could’ve read as a kid.

A couple of heartbreaks and a few years wiser though, I will admit that there are times when I question your existence. Because I have yet to meet the guy who makes me hear songs like “All My Life” or “A Whole New World” in my head when I see him does not mean I don’t hope that it’ll ever happen.

I may already know you or may still meet you someday—something I leave completely up to God because I’m pretty sure our story will be epic.

However, I can’t promise you that I’d make the world’s most perfect princess. In fact I’ll probably keep you on your toes and amuse you with my eccentricities—there are a lot of them. I’ll probably steal a bunch of your T-shirts and turn them into shirt dresses, or drive you slightly mad with my obsessive compulsivity and my need to fix your collar constantly.

I can promise to be your best friend however—that person you can rant to after a rough day, the hand you can hold when you get sad, or the person you can text when situations get awkward.

I’ll probably mess up your hair sometimes and hug you for too long, but that’ll only be because I absolutely adore you. I’ll bury my head in your shoulder during scary movies and make you feel like superman when you kill those flying cockroaches that really shouldn’t exist. I’ll cook your favorite food on your birthday and try my best to make friends with your mom.

I’ll respect your nights-out with the boys and make you seem like the perfect guy to my barkada. I’ll watch basketball or soccer games with you, and not complain when you cheer too loudly at the TV set.

I’ll know the difference between giving you space and being constantly there for you—even if it means sitting and playing video games with you or taking hot chocolate runs when it rains.

I’ll listen to your music and we’ll go on epic adventures together—seeing the world, taking awesome pictures, eating awesome food, and never running out of things to tell each other along the way.

I won’t be waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and take me on a magic carpet ride, because I know I won’t need anything like that to fall for you—I will love you for you.

You will be that someone to make goofy faces with in pictures, to lace fingers with when I’m lonely, and to take long walks under the stars with on the beach.

You’ll be the guy who takes me the way I am—and will laugh as I burst into Disney song or pick out pink wallpaper.

You’ll be that someone I envision a future with—us filling out visa forms as we travel the universe, picking out our first dog together and arguing about what to name it, or being snap-happy stage parents in our preschooler’s annual mini-plays. And I keep hoping that maybe someday when we find each other, you will become that someone whose smile I wake up to in the morning and the last one I speak to every night.

So to the man I know does exist, and who will help me maybe make sense of the world someday, this man I can’t wait to love. Please know that I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. But for now, I wait. Fingers crossed and palms held together, I hope that you’re out there somewhere, waiting for me, too.

With the hope I will be yours for always,

Me

Who am I?

There always comes a time when we feel lost; a time when we somehow feel disconnected to our own selves. It's weird, I know, and it's hard to understand. But during these times, the only option to do is to ask ourselves this question: "Who am I?".

Millions of people find this to be the most difficult question to answer. And although a lot of self-help books have been published in order for people to discover themselves, this question still remains to be a difficult one to give an answer to.

You know why?

Because the truth is, there is really no answer to this question. No one in this universe can fully answer who they REALLY are; and more so, to give specific details on who they TRULY are.

This came up to me one time because a certain instance came when I forgot who I am. For a while, i seemed to forget what I was like, what I am like, and what I will be like. You see, as far as I know, I am an easy-going person. Sure, I have my own problems, frustrations, and other things which make me sad; but never was I the person who will succumb to negativity and drown myself into tears. I cry, yes, but only for valid reasons; and that is when it only comes to my family and friends. So when this "instance" came, I was actually surprised with what kind of person I turned out to be.

I cannot give a specific details as of the moment, but you know what I have discovered after that?

I have discovered that for the most years of my life, I have put up a wall and found it hard to let people come in into my life. All this time, I never thought that letting people in was actually my greatest fear.I never knew that I was actually afraid of being too much involved with someone because I'm scared of being too attached and just be hurt in the end. And I never knew that I could cry because of someone who I have been constantly denying to be a part of my heart. I wouldn't call it a heartbreak though; but having that thing in your stomach upon knowing something is the worst feeling in the world. It's like something is pulling your tears to fall down; but because you are trying to remain firm in your beliefs and show the world that you are strong, you are doing everything to hold it in. But tell you what, it never works.

And you know why?

Because at the end of it, there will be nothing else left for you to do but to give in to your emotion and well, you know, to cry. Somehow I figured out that crying is actually a good thing. Crying will always be the last resort for all human beings. And crying does cleanse our soul; it helps wash out our problems and clear out our hearts of the things that have been bothering us. Sure, there will still be some parts of the hurt feeling; but releasing your tears can actually give you a certain feeling that nothing in this world can ever replace: FREEDOM. Because only upon finally accepting defeat from our emotions can we only know and discover some parts of who we truly are. This gives us the liberty to explore the other parts of our personality and to accept each one of them as they emerge from our experiences.

Discovering ourself may be the longest journey that we would ever take as we are living. This is an unending quest that no one has ever finished venturing; not even the ones who have already passed away. And I think this may be the reason why God has given us the ability to think and to feel; because he wants us to use both as we conquer the true purpose of our life: discovering who we are and why we ever existed.

I LOVE LIFE!!

I LOVE LIFE!!!

Half of my ♥

HALF OF MY HEART

By: John Mayer

I was born in the arms of imaginary friend

Free to roam made a home out of everywhere I've been

Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing

Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation

Half of my heart takes time

Half of my heart's got the right mind to tell you that

I can't keep loving you

Oh, half of my heart

I was made to believe I'll never love somebody else

I made a plan, stayed the man

Who can only love himself

Lonely was the song I

'till the day you came

Showing me a better way and all that my love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation

Half of my heart takes time

Half of my heart's got the right mind to tell you that

I can`t keep loving you

Oh, half of my heart   with half of my heart

Your faith is strong

But I can only fall so far so long

Time to hold, later on

You will hate that I never gave more to you

than half of my heart

But I can't stop loving you

But I can't stop loving you     

But I can't stop loving you

With half of my, half of my heart

Oh, half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination

Half of my heart's got you

Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring      

Half of my heart is the part of a man who's never

truly loved anything
 

Oh, half of my heart

Oh, half of my heart

Half of my heart

Oh, half of my heart

Half of my heart 

Oh, half of my heart




Can I just say How much I LOVE this song?




Listening to the song, you could tell that it is melancholic and it expresses a feeling of sadness and despair.

What more could be sadder than a story of a boy who, because of his feeling of insufficiency for the girl that he loves, just chose to leave.

I don't really know why, but somehow in a way, i really felt connected to this song.

The moment i first listened to it, I knew that this song would make a huge impact to my heart.

True enough, my heart does beat differently whenever i hear the song.

It's like the song is directly talking to my heart

No other song have made me feel this way, and that I can assure with MY WHOLE HEART!

naks!!!=)

Maybe some time in the future I would be able to explain the reason behind this.

Trust me, I don't the explanation as of the moment as well.

I LOVE LIFE!!=)

After 10 days....

Wow!! Time really does fly fast!! It's already exactly a day after i last posted. So what happened during the last 10 days? Hmmmmmm Let me see..

July 10 : My ate's birthday dinner at Racks's Megamall. It was a fun night even if it's really tiring

July 11: The much awaited Althemar's - Bellemundo bowling match. Super fun!! although we lost again. How I wish we also had more time to bowl like them. They were really good!!! By the way, the Bellemundo team is actually my mom's bestfriend's family. We've know them since we were very young and so they are like our family already. It's always fun bonding with them!=)

July 12: Yikes!! Our Art Appreciation class presentation day!! This is actually my first time to play the guitar in front of my classmates. I played once during my 18th birthday because i don't really think that I am that good yet hahaha!!

July 13: I just stayed home today to do my HR presentation/report. Nothing much happened today

July 14: No classes today because of Typhoon Basyang!! Oh my Gosh!!this typhoon scared the hell out of me. I was really scared and restless the whole morning (aroudn 12 am to 5 pm). You see, our house is quite high so the wind directly aimed at us; and it feels as if there is an earthquake! (this is not an exaggeration!). I'm just really thankful to God because He kept us safe!

July 15: First day of OJT today at the UST College of Science Guidance and Counseling department.I really had fun! Actually, way too much fun!! Hahaha!!

July 16: Last day of the week today!! I was really happy during this day because I got to recite in our Economics and Taxation class!!Woohooo!! It was definitely a great end of school week!!

July 17: Oxford went to the hospital today because of an abrupt fever. We stayed pretty much the whole day at Medical City. Thank God he's fine and was not admitted

July 18: We attended the 10 am mass at the St.Francis of Assisi Parish Church. By the way, this is the church where my brother, sister, and I, and now my nephew too, were all baptized. Purrtyyy Cool huh?hahaha!! I also bought a netbook today!! Yay!!Finally!! I wouldn't have to wait for my sister to come home before i can use her laptop. haha! Kawawa naman ako diba? So finally, my parents took pity on me and bought me a netbook. And i thought, i would have to sell my iphone to buy one. hahaha!! Yay! Too many things to be thankful for!!

I LOVE LIFE!!!

I LOVE GOD!!!

It's a new week!!

-Chick

10th of The 7th

Today is the "10th" day of the "7th" month, there's really nothing special about it; i just can't think of a title for my post.

So anyway..

Today is a Saturday, and there is nothing more that I love than a lazy Saturday. I can finally rest after a week-long of studying, and coming home late. I really don't like night schedules! I like starting the day early. Maybe it's something that I got from my paternal grandfather. I wasn't really able to meet him for he died years ago even before I was born. So anyway, he believed that the sun should not rise before you. Actually what he did then (according to my dad) was that he wakes up early before sunrise, then he sleeps again after it rose up. Smart right? Well, at least the sun never rose up before him. Funny!! I'd really like to try that. Actually, I like getting up at around 6 or 7 in the morning. There's something about these times that is so relaxing; actually, it brings me hope to start the day. Waking up early takes off that GUILT feeling of not being productive throughout the day. You see, whenever I wake up this early, I actually just chill around the house; maybe do some internet surfing, sometimes contemplating and stuff. I do this for around three hours; and after that, my real day begins. So see?that'll take off the guilt feelings because time was never really wasted. I don't know if it's clear but that's just how it is hahaha!!I like to see it as "instead of slacking off on my bed, I would rather spend some time alone with myself and make myself happy". Now that's priceless huh?hahaha!!

bottomline is: I AM A MORNING PERSON...hahaha!

That's exactly what I am doing right now, having some "ME-time". I watched my favorite TV Shows, I was able to update my blog, and I am HAPPY.

After this, my real day starts!!!

Adios!!!!

So what?

It's the first day of July!!Yay!!So it means that almost a month of school had passed already!!!3 months to go!!Although I don't want senior year in college to end just yet. I just hope that my schedule was different.gaaahh!! I hate going home from school so late at night. I am a morning person!! Oh well.

SO WHAT?

Actually I have been doing a lot of contemplating lately and I have realized some things; things which may seem shallow but is actually what have been occupying my mind these past few days.

DESTINY

....I am a believer of destiny. I believe that everything happens for a reason; that there is an actual supreme being that is watching all of us from above. I believe that he is a very powerful BEING; and he really knows what is good for us. I believe that for each and every person in this universe, there is and there will always be a specific person that is destined to be with them forever. It doesn't matter if the two of you are living miles away from each other; or even if you're near as well. If the universe, and destiny conspire, then there is nothing that we can do about it.

SERENDIPITY

...Basing on this movie, isn't it amazing how fate worked out. I know that in the beginning there are "aarrrgghh..they almost saw each other already" moments and we all wanted to blame the director because the meeting didn't happen. Personally for me, the elevator scene is the most "aarrrrggghh" moment! Imagine, they pressed the same floor button, but they still didn't see each other!!Gosh!!!Anyway, at least it all worked out in the end.

SO WHAT'S MY POINT HERE?

Here it is:

I have been thinking lately......

...See, I am a believer of SIGNS. If there is one thing which I BELIEVE in and I am very certain of, it would be my belief in SIGNS!!A lot of instances have proven this to me, and up until now, I am still holding on to it. For the past few years of my life, I have decided that I should ask signs from HIM. Of course, this is not to challenge him; I just know that for my every question, God cannot give me direct answers, so might as well ask for signs. And believe me, GOD DOES ANSWER.

In my personal life, In my professional life (and by professional, I mean my studies), and yes, even my soon-to-be love life God has given me answers to every question that I asked. However, at the moment, I am currently in a confused state. I know that there are questions with answers; but what if the answers that HE gave are now the questions that I ask?Confusing right? I know!

So anyway, bottom line is this:

In this life, we are all dreaming of the perfect and happy ending; but let's face it, there are no PERFECT and HAPPY endings. It's all just a matter of self-perception. We must remember that it is always up to us to realize if where we ended up in is HAPPY and PERFECT. Some things don't happen the way we expect them to be, but if we believe that these things will make us happy and make our life perfect, then it definitely is our HAPPY AND PERFECT ENDING.

I will leave this for now.

A Lot of thinking to do

A Lot of question to ask

A Lot of answers to wait for

I LOVE LIFE!! and the EXCITEMENT THAT COMES ALONG WITH IT!!

April 21,2010

Today, I am officially a BLOGGER!!!

I always wanted to write, but i never had the "consistency" of doing so. I started blogging in Multiply, but that was just it. When Facebook boomed, multiply got out. Haha! So then, i thought that if i really wanted to write, then i should start doing it now. Actually, if I am being the "typical" ME, I would never start this blog unless today is the beginning of the week, or of the month,and what's worse: the beginning of the year. I don't know, but I just have this "urge" of making things "official"; like what i mentioned a while ago. I just have to start things at a certain time, at a certain moment. But that was the old me; As of today, I will just "go with the flow". Like, if I wanted to write a blog, I will write if I want to; and not because I am supposed to. I will follow my instincts do things not because I am obliged to.

Yay to me!!!

So, today, is my 5th official day at work. That's right. As of April 13, 2010, I am officially a working girl. Not the official type though; I am just having my on-the-job training for the summer. I am "working" at BDO Makati Head Office - HRM Recruitment. And a typical day for me at work is: doing call outs, writing transmittal slips, doing call outs! hahaha!! But don't get me wrong, I am not complaining; it's just that somehow, i feel like I am not being productive anymore. Anyway, my supervisor promised me that I will do something different tomorrw...yeessshhhkkk!! *fingers-crossed!!

bye Blog!! See you again!!

-butchik