Who am I?

There always comes a time when we feel lost; a time when we somehow feel disconnected to our own selves. It's weird, I know, and it's hard to understand. But during these times, the only option to do is to ask ourselves this question: "Who am I?".

Millions of people find this to be the most difficult question to answer. And although a lot of self-help books have been published in order for people to discover themselves, this question still remains to be a difficult one to give an answer to.

You know why?

Because the truth is, there is really no answer to this question. No one in this universe can fully answer who they REALLY are; and more so, to give specific details on who they TRULY are.

This came up to me one time because a certain instance came when I forgot who I am. For a while, i seemed to forget what I was like, what I am like, and what I will be like. You see, as far as I know, I am an easy-going person. Sure, I have my own problems, frustrations, and other things which make me sad; but never was I the person who will succumb to negativity and drown myself into tears. I cry, yes, but only for valid reasons; and that is when it only comes to my family and friends. So when this "instance" came, I was actually surprised with what kind of person I turned out to be.

I cannot give a specific details as of the moment, but you know what I have discovered after that?

I have discovered that for the most years of my life, I have put up a wall and found it hard to let people come in into my life. All this time, I never thought that letting people in was actually my greatest fear.I never knew that I was actually afraid of being too much involved with someone because I'm scared of being too attached and just be hurt in the end. And I never knew that I could cry because of someone who I have been constantly denying to be a part of my heart. I wouldn't call it a heartbreak though; but having that thing in your stomach upon knowing something is the worst feeling in the world. It's like something is pulling your tears to fall down; but because you are trying to remain firm in your beliefs and show the world that you are strong, you are doing everything to hold it in. But tell you what, it never works.

And you know why?

Because at the end of it, there will be nothing else left for you to do but to give in to your emotion and well, you know, to cry. Somehow I figured out that crying is actually a good thing. Crying will always be the last resort for all human beings. And crying does cleanse our soul; it helps wash out our problems and clear out our hearts of the things that have been bothering us. Sure, there will still be some parts of the hurt feeling; but releasing your tears can actually give you a certain feeling that nothing in this world can ever replace: FREEDOM. Because only upon finally accepting defeat from our emotions can we only know and discover some parts of who we truly are. This gives us the liberty to explore the other parts of our personality and to accept each one of them as they emerge from our experiences.

Discovering ourself may be the longest journey that we would ever take as we are living. This is an unending quest that no one has ever finished venturing; not even the ones who have already passed away. And I think this may be the reason why God has given us the ability to think and to feel; because he wants us to use both as we conquer the true purpose of our life: discovering who we are and why we ever existed.

I LOVE LIFE!!

I LOVE LIFE!!!